12 nov. 2009

Buy Nothing Day

Via Elizabeth, the Adbusters’ campaign for Buy Nothing Day.

(I personally would tweak the graphic to say—don’t watch the TV spots. Television is a blight, and it’s for losers.)

Join the Facebook group!

11 nov. 2009

11:11

The appearance of 11:11 is also a powerful confirmation
that we are on the right track,
aligned with the beam of our Highest Truth.
Some New Age author

So, today, most everything seems to be awry. (I will not give specifics, because kvetching does not help.)

Recently, though, I learned in a very powerful way that experiences that seem grievous at first can be for blessings, immense blessings.

And a very wise and kind person (an M.D. and professor, for Pete’s sake!) told me that G-d had sent an angel to watch over me.

And, furthermore, it is 11.11, which is supposed to be an auspicious time—a time when angels are near, sending wake-up calls and messages of love and support.

And so, I hereby turn over all the mishigas and seeming trouble and say: Thank you. Thank you. THANK YOU.

10 nov. 2009

Blessings

There are no mistakes, no coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from.
Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
That lesson is hard but true and transformative.

More later. Feeling very, very grateful and humbled today—and determined to make big changes.

9 nov. 2009

Victory!

This morning, after weeks of phone calls, website stalking, and an attempted invasion of a flu-shot clinic for hospital staff, I got my carnitas influenza (H1N1, bacon lung, pig AIDS) vaccine from my kind and wonderful internist.

Dear tinfoil-hat crowd: The vaccine is perfectly safe. It’s people who refuse to get the vaccine who are dangerous—even to our four-legged friends.

Pensée du lundi 9 novembre

It breaks your heart. It is designed to break your heart. The game begins in the spring, when everything else begins again, and it blossoms in the summer, filling the afternoons and evenings, and then as soon as the chill rains come, it stops and leaves you to face the fall alone. You count on it, rely on it to buffer the passage of time, to keep the memory of sunshine and high skies alive, and then just when the days are all twilight, when you need it most, it stops.
A. Bartlett Giamatti,
a R*d S*x fan, but a mensch
The joy is still fresh, and yet: It struck me that someday, in the not-too-distant future, there will be baseball without Mariano Rivera and Derek Jeter.

I can’t wrap my mind around that idea. I still grieve for the Scooter, still miss Bernie Williams.

Okay, but that time is not here yet. Now on to twenty-eight!

8 nov. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLVI

  1. opening my curtains to golden autumn sunlight and a periwinkle blue sky
  2. S, AKS, MHS, DK, TK, and other friends who really care (thank you)
  3. an afternoon of friendly conversation, knitting, and healing
  4. meeting so many fabulous and inspiring women
  5. getting over my fiber snobbery…
  6. …and digging something really gorgeous
  7. that creating heals and energizes me, always
  8. a same-day appointment with Dr. M
  9. …a healer of body and soul
  10. doctors who return calls within three minutes
  11. my amazing pharmacy (repeat)…
  12. …where I also picked up Borotalco doccia schiuma bonus size at a great price! (all set for 2010)
  13. a cup of freshly brewed coffee, followed by a whole-milk latte from S, after surgery
  14. all that said, one whole week without a doctor’s appointment, knock wood and thank you very much
  15. 27
  16. once again seeing the Empire State building aglow in Yankees white and blue
  17. the unfathomable privilege of witnessing the careers of Derek Jeter and Mariano Rivera
  18. There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer; no disease that enough love will not heal; no gulf that enough love will not bridge; no wall that enough love will not throw down; no sin that enough love will not redeem.
  19. happy anticipation of seeing MT and RC
  20. cleaning my desk at the office
  21. who am I fooling, I am The GMBF (Gay Man’s Best Friend)
  22. for real!
  23. Mother Emily
  24. a Tiergarten remix!
  25. overcoming a lace snafu
  26. that when I let go of shallow “friends,” wonderful new people come into my life
  27. that said, rising above spite and wishing my faux amis the best
  28. that AKS is on Gmail!
  29. Father Leonard sung by Sister Antony
  30. Father Leonard sung by Father Leonard
  31. Malabrigo Sock (yes, I am a junkie!)
  32. casting on a lengthwise scarf (252 stitches, phew!)
  33. itching to start taking pictures again
  34. a fabulous new idea for business cards
  35. scoring the best seat at Roasting Plant Coffee
  36. that no drinking or drugging pays off big-time (few wrinkles, dewy skin, and sparkling eyes)
  37. Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity… It turns problems into gifts, failures into success, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.
  38. being inoculated against hate and haters
  39. taking beautiful care of myself
  40. that my holiday cards are already a big hit
  41. my first timid steps into guerrilla self-marketing
  42. compliments on my Capezio Oxford Spectators every single time I wear them (it never ends!)
  43. plus they are also the most comfortable shoes in the world
  44. The Adopt-A-Turkey Project
  45. what keeps me sane-ish (repeat)
  46. something that grows more beautiful with every passing year
  47. ditto
  48. ditto ditto!
  49. being able to do favors for WW and other Berlin friends
  50. that Emme supports me in my strength and joy
  51. new Ravelry pals
  52. divine mercy, good health, life (repeats)
  53. that protein never lets me down
  54. learning that giving myself a break can equal strength
  55. happy anticipation of meeting AC
  56. moxie and putting it out there!
  57. that S was on the tee-vee!
  58. hobo sushi (repeat)
  59. angels and those who point them out to me
  60. believing that 2010 will be a beautiful year
  61. cleaning up my Twitter account
  62. so true!
  63. seeing other bloggers thrive and prosper
  64. Leipzig? Praha?
  65. zest for life, in myself and others
  66. generic scrips and modestly priced remedies
  67. staying up to hear this played for the last time this season, in triumph!
  68. living in an amazing city
  69. asking for and obtaining what I need from VC
  70. joy
» Il bacio sulla bocca

6 nov. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLVc

  1. angels watching over me
  2. an evening in the company of fabulous and inspiring women
  3. a call from S
  4. hearing from AKS
  5. kindness and concern from Italy, Sweden, Germany…
  6. my LYS
  7. a doctor who heals body and soul
  8. an amazing salad (with apricots, butternut squash, quinoa, and more)
  9. seeing the Empire State Building aglow in Yankee blue and white
  10. that it never gets old!
  11. to witness the careers of the Captain, Mo, Bernie, and other greats
  12. things that seem bad at first but prove to be for a blessing
  13. Berlin!
  14. Wollmeise!
  15. Alcaucil!
  16. deep, healing sleep
  17. Icelandic chocolate
  18. good health, life, divine mercy (repeats)

5 nov. 2009

Twenty-seven


Maybe it’s because I was butchered by an anesthesiologist today, but I am having more trouble than usual keeping it classy. So let me say:

Suck on it, haters!

The Yankees are the greatest, period. Thank you, G-d, for the immense privilege of seeing the Captain and Mo play baseball. Thank you for this great joy for my great city. Thank you.

(For the record, I have nothing against the Phillies, who are a tough and sassy team. But the haters can put a sock in it.)

4 nov. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLVb

  1. reassuring news
  2. the best possible care
  3. talking to AKS
  4. knowing that S is there for me
  5. wonderful camaraderie
  6. happy and productive knitting
  7. kind, efficient professionals
  8. so many people who care
  9. MT’s friendship
  10. smelling and looking fabulous
  11. creative, absorbing activities
  12. the Internet Anagram Server
  13. calm and strength
  14. being a fierce advocate for myself
  15. knowing that I made the right decision
  16. asking for what I want
  17. more kindness and concern where least expected
  18. good health, divine mercy, life (repeats)

3 nov. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLVa

  1. amazingly good lentil soup
  2. another day of fun work
  3. an easy departure and commute
  4. clean, folded laundry
  5. tidying up
  6. Pure Grace
  7. speaking my mind
  8. deep, restorative sleep
  9. trusting
  10. getting back to 100% (and beyond) at the gym
  11. a visit from a friend
  12. so many lovely colleagues
  13. a message from MT
  14. a great hair day
  15. feeling good about myself
  16. new exercise togs (thanks, S)
  17. productive knitting
  18. good health, divine mercy, life (repeats)

1 nov. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLV

  1. hearing AKS’s voice!
  2. a beautiful card from Den Haag with my favorite flower (thanks, V)
  3. Tweets from EJM and RRC
  4. a really posh new Twitter follower
  5. the chance to follow COLOURlovers and IntegralYogaNY
  6. good health, life, and divine mercy (repeats)
  7. an extra hour of sleep
  8. true friends who are there for me
  9. the pinnacle of civilization
  10. a dream of going to the Super Bowl in a space-age vehicle with Alex Rodriguez (WTF? but it was fun!)
  11. the chubby and temperamental cat who was also in the dream
  12. a different dream—of New York, gritty and shimmering in the rain
  13. yet another dream, that told a hard and necessary truth
  14. my apparent abundance of serotonin (promotes dreams)
  15. a blissfully peaceful and productive day at the office
  16. a just-what-I-needed yoga class
  17. bargain luxury goods
  18. meticulous, dedicated doctors...
  19. ...including one who has turned down three co-pays (and counting)
  20. grit and resilience
  21. The Temptations
  22. the best pharmacy in the world! (repeat)
  23. that I’m a champion healer
  24. getting on with things
  25. Remember that praise and thanksgiving are the most powerful prayers of all.
  26. learning that Ben Katchor and Mark Mulcahy are working on a new show!
  27. getting home before the parade…
  28. …and spending a peaceful evening with Beverly Sills, Janet Baker, and other great souls
  29. a beautiful haircut…
  30. …and amazing color
  31. Rescue Cream (thank you, GSI and S)
  32. a three-hour-plus exercise session
  33. that my regalucci made it to Florence…
  34. …and pleased Emme and family
  35. the return of bracing fall weather
  36. kind expressions of concern
  37. excellent advice from several brilliant women
  38. making progress on my Travelling Woman
  39. choosing action and life over immobility
  40. Une femme sans parfum est une femme sans avenir.
  41. that I have perfume
  42. cheap and good lentil soup
  43. Personne n’est jeune après quarante ans mais on peut être irrésistible à tout âge.
  44. artistry, inspiration, joy (how I love that blog!)
  45. Brel
  46. tasty junk food (new to me)
  47. tasty junk food (oldie but goodie)
  48. getting the message that I need to dance!
  49. believing that challenges will be overcome
  50. impetus to lose the last bit of weight and make important changes
  51. knowing that Berlin is waiting for me
  52. hearing from FMT (who now, guarda caso, is very active in Berlin!)
  53. feeling inspired and not threatened by examples of strength, achievement, and love
  54. turning to exercise, protein, and rest to keep me on an even keel
  55. trusting that there will be enough time
  56. discovering a beautiful area of Brooklyn
  57. friends who support me in my strengths and passions
  58. running into a treasured young friend
  59. young friends, tout court!
  60. yes
  61. taking a moment to say “hello,” and knowing that it was appreciated
  62. pride and joy
  63. oh, and that Hopey finally lifted the HIV travel ban
  64. choosing FABULOUSNESS
  65. being able to send the merit from my yoga practice to those in need
  66. trusting in my strength and healing
  67. Please be kind if I’m a mess (repeat)
  68. finding Borotalco at a great price
  69. taking wisdom where I find it:
    one of the best tools for longevity and good health is not just taking a walk outdoors but taking your walk while holding the hand of G-d. when we walk in gratitude for each and every moment, we empower ourselves by empowering our spirits. when we breath in nature through our eyes, ears and lips, we become certain not only that our souls are eternal, but that G-d knows how to manage our lives, our troubles, our worries and our days better than we do. so today and every day, “let go and let G-d.”
» Il bacio sulla bocca

30 oct. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLIVa

  1. hearing from AKS, MT, PG, VL, and other cherished friends
  2. S’s staunch friendship and excellent advice
  3. sparkly, sunny days
  4. beautiful healing
  5. VC
  6. a fabulous evening with Ben Katchor and Mark Mulcahy
  7. tuning up my fall antibodies
  8. Dr. M
  9. Dr. M
  10. doing things sooner rather than later
  11. deep, restorative sleep
  12. my brilliant colorist
  13. downsizing
  14. creative, fulfilling work
  15. MT, TK, WW, and other friends who help with German!
  16. grit and moxie
  17. kindness and support where once scarce
  18. good health, life, divine mercy (repeats)

25 oct. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLIV

  1. superb, compassionate healers
  2. S’s stalwart friendship
  3. being handed a whole-milk latte upon awakening
  4. that AKS and RHH were there with me, too
  5. the privilege and joy of being asked to spend time with MIS
  6. the many friends (MHS, MS, MT, RGP, GSI, VL, UR, WW, WB, JRD, RC, and others) who sent love and good wishes
  7. the strength and cool head I didn’t know I had
  8. warm blankets
  9. a multicultural team
  10. the many benefits of exercise (including a speedy recovery)
  11. the M8 bus (a.k.a. the Hobo Sushi Express)
  12. Downtown Yarns (the friendliest staff and most interesting selection in NYC)
  13. Rayon Vert (even prettier and more complex in person)
  14. Gianmaria Testa and Rita Marcotulli
  15. Le Premier bonheur du jour
  16. Everywhere
  17. black, my power color
  18. FABULOUS SWAG from S!
  19. many miracles, including…
  20. a place to stay in Berlin…
  21. permission to take an extra-long vacation…
  22. finding a passably affordable flight…
  23. WW’s amazing kindness and disponibilità
  24. the chance to do some favors for her and the gals…
  25. and the chance to spend time with Emme!
  26. sturdier, more fountain-pen-friendly paper in Moleskines
  27. never-ending compliments on my Capezio spectators
  28. finding a new pair of those discontinued shoes on eBay (for a song)
  29. Nouvelle Vague (pourquoi pas ?)
  30. healing naps
  31. liquorice and Indian food (thanks, S)
  32. a new Ravelry friend in Berlin (thanks, U)
  33. finally getting the Q-to-the-D transfer right (a few weeks too late, sigh)
  34. good health, divine mercy, and life (repeat)
  35. that an experience I had feared might floor me seems to be freeing me
  36. a nice printing job on my holiday cards!
  37. oh, and that their magick seems to be afoot already
  38. the chance to hear Maestro Luisi conduct
  39. that my world is expanding, and not only virtually
  40. asking friends for help…
  41. …and friends who answer when asked
  42. squeezing in a two-hour workout before surgery (ha ha ha ha)
  43. Badedas
  44. minty Tylenol (which seems to fuel good dreams)
  45. Chanel couture and shoes (even if only in my dreams) (FOR NOW)
  46. Lima!
  47. finding my misplaced $50 mosquito-bite cream (don’t ask)
  48. a brisk and luminous Sunday
  49. that my wimpy little Timex is hangin’ in there
  50. a chance for positive change there
  51. that people always ask if I’m a dancer
  52. being a yogan
  53. men in my life who are handsome, straight, single, and European (and unavailable, but still!)
  54. the Yarn Harlot, so different from me, yet always an inspiration
  55. good hair days (repeat)
  56. a photojournalist!
  57. Vistaprint
  58. Wordle
  59. pennies from heaven (repeat)
  60. l’avoir échappée belle (?)
  61. leopardskin
  62. my 2010 anthem?
  63. or this?
  64. or this?
  65. a chance, maybe, to learn something about Baudelaire
  66. a chance, maybe, to become a WordPress ninja
  67. Freude ist mag(net)isch.
  68. G-d’s loving protection
  69. waves from a lovely little girl on the subway
» Il bacio sulla bocca

23 oct. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLIIIc

  1. finally getting started for real on an important project
  2. joyous anticipation of spending time with Emme
  3. joyous anticipation of seeing W and die anderen Strickerinnen again
  4. messages of love and good wishes, from U and others
  5. Ollie’s
  6. persimmons at my grocery store, too!
  7. a friendly and helpful nurse
  8. good health, divine mercy, and life (repeat)
  9. photos of a beloved friend, her kitties, and her landscape
  10. hope and optimism
  11. hearing MHS’s voice
  12. reaching E via Facebook
  13. eight hours of deep, uninterrupted sleep
  14. thirsting for change and health and joy
  15. meeting one of my idols and enjoying her mesmerizing artistry
  16. that Martha Wainwright’s Piaf CD will be out soon!
  17. happy anticipation of another Tournées film festival
  18. good hair days, roots notwithstanding

22 oct. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLIIIb

  1. booking my ticket to Berlin
  2. hearing from M, V, N, W and other across-the-pond friends
  3. the determination to make things happen
  4. a visit from a sweet kid
  5. running into a favorite colleague
  6. messages of support from VC and MHS
  7. progress in my knitting
  8. progress in my study of German
  9. getting extra rest before Friday
  10. a loving and heart-healing message from GSI
  11. following Orangette on Twitter, too
  12. a chance to get some Wollmeise!
  13. feeling that the future will be good
  14. good health, divine mercy, and life (repeats)
  15. feeling good about putting myself out there
  16. that an admired colleague has won his freedom
  17. a lovely surprise in my inbox
  18. treating myself with mercy and kindness

19 oct. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLIIIa

  1. a cold, invigorating evening
  2. liquorice
  3. a terrific, new-to-me yoga instructor
  4. Evian water*
  5. an internist who is super-conscientious about sending me test results
  6. an empty laundry room
  7. no line at the Post Office, either!
  8. quick turnaround of my holiday cards
  9. friends in many lands
  10. free lodging
  11. the chance to make MS smile
  12. some 4,000 free scarf patters on Ravelry (for stash-busting and gift-making)
  13. finally reading the Vogue Knitting article about Véronik Avery
  14. inexpensive and amazing soap
  15. another superb designer
  16. knowing that S will be there for me on Friday
  17. making a care package for O
  18. good health, divine mercy, life (repeats)
* Drinking bottled water is reprehensible for environmental and economic reasons, but I love Evian—honestly, I prefer it to chocolate.

Pensée du lundi 19 octobre

Postcards from Berlin, in Berlin.

18 oct. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLIII

  1. S and other true, there-for-me friends
  2. loving messages from Firenze, Montalcino, and Den Haag
  3. superb and caring doctors
  4. looking after myself
  5. being at peace with myself
  6. knowing that I am enough, I have enough, and I do enough (repeat)
  7. that I heal terrifically well
  8. the glorious cold weather
  9. sending off Halloween cards to much-loved young friends
  10. a Berlin miracle that is taking shape!
  11. a bigger Berlin miracle to which I am committed
  12. Springsteen in the morning
  13. excellent south Indian food
  14. a new café with free wifi and Motown!
  15. happy anticipation of seeing Ben Katchor and Mark Mulcahy
  16. food, shelter, clothing, and other things sometimes taken for granted
  17. throwing my hat into the ring (repeat)
  18. getting myself to Knitty City
  19. writing to an idol
  20. composing, designing, and ordering my holiday cards
  21. the healing power of creativity
  22. the healing power of sweat and motion
  23. good hair days (repeat)
  24. great skin days
  25. aligning myself with learning and growth
  26. New York State apples
  27. asking for what I need
  28. friends who support my greatest joy
  29. friends (GSI, ad esempio) who ask me what I want and need
  30. so many staunch and loving friends!
  31. a long, voluptuous nap
  32. inching ever closer to Michelle Obama arms
  33. free guacamole
  34. loving myself no matter what
  35. wisdom from Emmet Fox: “An understanding joy in living is the highest prayer of all.”
  36. facing with courage and gratitude something that once would have undone me
  37. that Sancta Rufola is at work on a new album!
  38. Amy
  39. Serge
  40. being told that I look great by someone whose opinion matters
  41. greater discernment about people and things
  42. EUR 3.99 flights from Berlin to Stockholm
  43. putting things in the mail (repeat)
  44. healing from perfectionism
  45. a terrific tweet about television: “Turn the f*cking thing off! EXPERIENCE THINGS!”
  46. overcoming avoidance
  47. a happy dream about creating
  48. my health insurance, imperfect though it may be
  49. wisdom from Gandhi: “A ‘no’ uttered from the deepest conviction is better than a ‘yes’ uttered merely to please, or worse, to avoid trouble.”
  50. wisdom from EZ: “Despise feints and blather.”
  51. another amazing post from an inspiring “militant pedestrian”
  52. wisdom from Simone Weil: “Imaginary evil is romantic and varied; real evil is gloomy, monotonous, barren, boring. Imaginary good is boring; real good is always new, marvelous, intoxicating.”
  53. good digestion
  54. coffee with whole milk, thank you very much…
  55. …and the rock-bottom cholesterol levels that allow for such indulgences!
  56. stamps, envelopes, postcards, and other instruments of love
  57. a fresh-from-the-oven cookie
  58. ideas for articles about Berlin
  59. countries where broadband (oh, yeah, and healthcare) is a right
  60. study new walking shoes
  61. putting together pretty outfits
  62. long, dark nights
  63. my snuggly comforter
  64. seeing things from new perspectives
  65. a wonderful and much-underrated soprano
  66. good health (repeat)
  67. divine mercy (repeat)
  68. life (repeat)
» Il bacio sulla bocca

16 oct. 2009

Let there be light

Bottles of lemonade in a store near my house, photographed a few days ago.

I wish everyone a tender and luminous weekend! *smooch*

15 oct. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLIIa

  1. a cool, invigorating day
  2. an excellent manicure
  3. friends who care
  4. kind and helpful professionals
  5. Isager Wool 1 in charcoal grey
  6. free guacamole
  7. healing
  8. a good hair day
  9. good skin pretty much every day
  10. being welcome in Berlin
  11. W’s monumental Wollmeise haul!
  12. making clients happy
  13. doing creative work
  14. composing, creating, and ordering my holiday cards
  15. Emily Dickinson
  16. a new album in the works from Sancta Rufola
  17. life (repeat)
  18. divine mercy (repeat)

12 oct. 2009

Pensée du lundi 12 octobre

One of my yoga teachers yesterday spoke about cultivating santosha: “the root of joy,” “all about being content with one’s actions and with what one has, what one is, where one is.”

It is a feeling that has been welling up in me these last months, even in the face of challenges. I experienced santosha to an intense degree when visiting the Regional Assembly of Text in Vancouver with a friend. Run by two amazing young women, this lovely little emporium sells stationery and paper goods, with cozy do-it-yourself areas stocked with rubber stamps, ink pads, manual typewriters (!), and the like.

The shop hosts a monthly letter writing club, surely the most splendid idea I’ve encountered in ages. Imagine: A salon with tea and biscuits, where one can commune with faraway friends and enjoy companionship and love with local comrades. Honestly, what could be better?

Speaking of santosha, look at what came up in my Emmet Fox anthology today:

Don’t pray or meditate as a duty. Realize that prayer is a visit with G-d and should be joyous.

Neither must you pursue your secular activities as necessary duties to be gotten over, that you may return to your prayer. In the light of Truth, there are no secular activities.

You must have regular recreation or you will become stale. Recreation, also, is to be enjoyed—as an expression of G-d—and not as a task to prepare yourself to pray better. An understanding joy in living is the highest prayer of all.
SANTOSHA!

Felix et errabunda XLII

  1. spending time with PG
  2. spending time with S
  3. so many happy and relaxing hours at The Bean (now closed, alas)
  4. yet another sign to get my f*cking act together and move to Europe already!
  5. a sparkling fall day
  6. visiting Downtown Yarns during the Yarn Crawl (which got me a discount, and they were amazingly kind and friendly, as always)
  7. giving myself this as a gift…
  8. …but waiting on the Rowan Lima (which looks DIVINE)
  9. text messages from Bath, Montalcino, Firenze, and Paris
  10. pear season
  11. seeing TK again at yoga class!
  12. santosha
  13. a troubled relationship that seems to be healing
  14. an inspiring and empowering Dreamweaver class
  15. window shopping in Soho
  16. Hampton Chutney!
  17. healthy aches and pains (repeat)
  18. doctors who e-mail (repeat)
  19. a small but significant burst of progress
  20. letting go of what no longer serves me
  21. unpacking (after years) pretty dishes for me and my guests
  22. a daunting task that really wasn’t
  23. throwing my hat into the ring
  24. my husband Barack’s Nobel Peace Prize (Hopey Hussein is da bomb!)
  25. the best coffee I’ve had in NYC, plus free wifi (thanks, S)
  26. that RHH, radiant and angelic, visited in a dream, to accompany me on a journey
  27. wearing RHH’s ring and feeling her love every day (thank you, T)
  28. that a nice gentleman took home the darling stray kitty who tried to follow me into my office
  29. that I’m going to find out WHY my bleeping allergist (whom I adore) won’t give me immunotherapy for cat allergies
  30. the song I used to play when brushing Khadra
  31. that I see one of the best surgeons in New York this week
  32. a blissful hour spent eating hobo sushi and writing cards to much-loved friends
  33. better pray for your sins!
  34. something good and beautiful from the New York Times (my grandparents often quoted that last saying)
  35. finally receiving the second batch of Tamiflu
  36. getting my seasonal flu shot before my internist ran out
  37. the greatest rock vocal ever
  38. erasing straggler messages from a person who treated me shabbily
  39. also, that said person apparently has not harmed herself, as threatened
  40. aligning myself with forgiveness and gratitude
  41. cool, good-for-sleeping nights
  42. so true!
  43. wanting to read again
  44. getting markedly more attention from dudes
  45. a doctor two doctors who turned down a co-pay
  46. that these lists cheer B
  47. Vitamin D and tocotrienols
  48. beauty and inspiration
  49. ditto
  50. orthotics
  51. finally getting meglio soli che male accompagnati
  52. the Indian moment happening in my life
  53. the nice people at my gym
  54. insisting on decent ginger tea, so there!
  55. Let no one anywhere despise another,
    Let no one out of anger or resentment
    Wish suffering on anyone at all.
    Just as a mother with her own life
    Protects her child, her only child, from harm,
    So within yourself let grow
    A boundless love for all creatures.
  56. rigorous, inspiring, loving teachers
  57. this message received in December 2007
  58. something (one of many things) to aspire to
  59. happy anticipation of Thanksgiving!
  60. how ditching television has made me happier, healthier, and smarter
  61. slowly embracing sanity
  62. ever-increasing serenity
  63. a professional who is the best, and so human and kind
  64. ZocDoc
  65. good health (repeat)
  66. divine mercy (repeat)
  67. life (repeat)
» Il bacio sulla bocca

4 oct. 2009

Felix et errabunda XLI

  1. hearing from MT
  2. an opportunity to learn Dreamweaver
  3. doctors who are healers
  4. friends and professionals who support my strength
  5. a colleague committed to excellence
  6. divine mercy (repeat)
  7. fighting off a cold
  8. free and surprisingly good instant coffee
  9. squeezing in the nap I’d needed since mid-September
  10. getting serious about forgiveness
  11. improving sleep, sans Vitamins A and K
  12. compliments on my skin from my über-fastidious dermatologist
  13. making three lovely people happy with cards
  14. sailing through a difficult sequence of asanas
  15. my peerless pharmacy
  16. getting some paperwork done
  17. Sheer Iced Mocha and…
  18. …in general, the ease and happiness that come with finding things that work and sticking with them
  19. Mr. X’s grace and radiant smile
  20. the sudden abundance of exceedingly attractive heterosexual men in my life, which can portend only good (semi-repeat)
  21. still more progress in strength training and Pilates
  22. love from a rapturous Chihuahua and other fetching quadripeds
  23. swift and complete healing of various incisions
  24. delectable and inexpensive fall apples
  25. knowing that it’s okay to change my mind
  26. Emmet Fox (repeat)
  27. the confidence that comes from being nicely turned out
  28. when people say, “Oh, you’re a dancer” (!)
  29. receiving my business cards
  30. taking myself to the movies (the film is slight but wonderful)
  31. good old eggs and potatoes
  32. having Tamiflu, a seasonal flu shot, a pneumonia vaccine, doctors who e-mail, and (soon!) an H1N1 jab
  33. incredible progress in overcoming my longstanding fear of doctors
  34. the kind gentleman at the gym who thanked me for always wiping down my machines
  35. S and other friends who support my dreams
  36. that purposeful activity, however modest, always heals and energizes me
  37. U, K, and other Ravelry friends
  38. a new release from a favorite musician
  39. a swelling chorus of acclaim for Mark Mulcahy (may G-d watch over him and his girls)
  40. a beautiful gift from an ex
  41. happy anticipation of seeing P (tocchiamo ferro!)
  42. regularly doing at once something that used to paralyze me
  43. interesting curry recipes for winter lunches
  44. daily belly laughs
  45. prayers for B and her sister
  46. Do or do not. There is no try.
  47. BOGOF vitamins, woo!
  48. a blog that never fails to delight and inspire me (repeat)
  49. Clif Builder’s bars at bargain prices
  50. rising above smallness (repeat)
  51. a sexy photo, and I took it!
  52. how taking an interest in others (i.e. letting go of self-pity) leads to real joy
  53. the happy outcome of saying “no” to oppressive, unwelcome ideas
  54. establishing limits…
  55. …and removing people, even admirable ones, from pedestals
  56. the feeling that a door is opening
  57. hearing the words love yourself first pierce the commotion in a café
  58. the pull of Europe
  59. being brave and proactive
  60. that revisiting old vices (large servings of sugary foods) made me feel wretched
  61. the clarity and strength that come from not blaming others, and from recognizing my complicity in abuse
  62. contemplating sexier lingerie
  63. getting closer to finding the perfect tweed blazer
  64. so many patient, kind, and loving friends
  65. life (repeat)
» Il bacio sulla bocca

30 sept. 2009

Apples

It will beggar a doctor to live where orchards thrive.
Spanish proverb

Apples from the Public Market on Granville Island, Vancouver.

27 sept. 2009

Felix et errabunda XL

  1. GOOD HEALTH (repeat)
  2. one of the most gorgeous songs ever (stick around for the stunning ghost track, too)
  3. an empowering dream
  4. a message of love and solidarity from Sweden
  5. wrapping up a project at the office
  6. Two Boots
  7. a sale on Sabra!
  8. happy anticipation of celebrating L’s birthday
  9. S’s staunch friendship and offer of help
  10. hugs from MHS, who is there for me, always
  11. reconnecting with Italian friends
  12. standing up to someone who has been behaving like a jerk…
  13. …and rising above his smallness
  14. a truly meaningful project at the office (repeat)
  15. grateful clients
  16. cutting myself some slack…
  17. …and finding that it was the right decision for other reasons, too
  18. that a favorite yoga teacher is back and better than ever
  19. sharp young doctors who e-mail
  20. an unexpected “I love you”
  21. not settling
  22. that a blog is, once again, just a blog
  23. that both Véronik and Dr. Kate will be stateside soon
  24. being more adventurous in my attire
  25. still more swanky new equipment at my gym…
  26. …and my improving performance on said equipment
  27. smiles from adorable babies
  28. warm and sincere good wishes for 5770
  29. Tutto è già qui
  30. making progress on an Aeolian variant
  31. honey cake for me, too
  32. that someone thinks I am tidy
  33. taking the time to research prospective doctors
  34. rising above catastrophic thinking
  35. beautiful and affordable stationery
  36. allowing myself to learn from a flawed person (i.e. take what you like and leave the rest)
  37. contemplating recovery, sul serio
  38. being able to do research from home
  39. getting back to my routine
  40. the healing and transforming power of this list
  41. an iPod Touch?
  42. Non piangere, coglione, ridi e vai
  43. healthy aches and pains (repeat)
  44. living outside of my comfort zone (repeat)
  45. recognizing that my “comfort zone” is f*cked
  46. knowing that the world has changed because I have changed
  47. sexy dreams
  48. refusing to be ripped off
  49. baby steps
  50. more and more resourcefulness
  51. seeing that rest and relaxation (in contrast to driving myself relentlessly) increases my strength
  52. saving one Denman Island chocolate bar for myself
  53. crisp and tingly fall days
  54. my daily companion
  55. a healer of body and soul
  56. handling things well
  57. creative arenas
  58. that Burritoville (tofu sour cream, brown rice, whole wheat tortillas, yay!) is reopening in my ‘hood
  59. breathing and letting go and letting be
  60. tricking myself into completing a hard workout when I wanted to quit
  61. making good use of my time
  62. divine mercy (repeat)
  63. repeat (repeat)
» Il bacio sulla bocca

25 sept. 2009

Jai guru deva om

I received the best, most precious gift for Rosh Hashanah.

And you? I wish you and yours all blessings of good health, love, serenity, abundance, and success in 5770. May you have an easy fast.

See you next week! जय गुरुदेव ॐ

21 sept. 2009

Felix et errabunda XXXIX

  1. GOOD HEALTH
  2. being treated with the utmost kindness and sensitivity
  3. people who are on my side and there for me
  4. knowing that I don’t need to be perfect, only better
  5. happy anticipation of seeing MM and BK
  6. a joyous and inspiring Rosh Hashanah…
  7. …with an amazing Moroccan feast!
  8. being in demand (repeat)
  9. putting things in the mail
  10. sleeping like a baby (repeat)
  11. compliments on my character and style
  12. receiving thanks
  13. making just what I want
  14. Bermuda Teal
  15. Tiziano Red
  16. that my French still rocks (repeat)
  17. a nice lady who wants to marry me off to a Frog!
  18. not rushing, and arriving with plenty of time to spare
  19. hearing that our holy days are a time for being who we really are and fulfilling our highest potential—and not for self-hatred
  20. healing (repeat)
  21. loving myself…
  22. …and being a better advocate for myself
  23. the Regional Assembly of Text
  24. treats in my Ravelry message box
  25. luminous, almost-fall days
  26. pomegranates
  27. old and new necklaces from African vendors
  28. strength (repeat)
  29. a faith that teaches that I am precious (not sinful)
  30. Andrew at Sam Flax
  31. knitting to the Beatles
  32. MM’s music
  33. Love
  34. an old faithful (repeat, and most apt)
  35. keeping busy
  36. staying in the moment
  37. realizing that my 5768 prayers were answered
  38. the best, most loving friends in the world
  39. appreciation for my work
  40. rocking the blue-and-brown thing
  41. friends’ prayers
  42. making people smile with honey cake…
  43. …and tidbits from YVR
  44. eggs at a BC dive with S
  45. another safe and comfortable Cathay Pacific flight
  46. still getting a few press CDs
  47. hearing from GF, and reading of his great success
  48. so many stylish and inspiring women
  49. running into a 3BF pal at Chapters…
  50. …who told me about the Oleana show
  51. picking up where I left off at the gym
  52. a blissful Saturday afternoon
  53. making a very handsome man smile
  54. feeling bien dans ma peau (repeat)
  55. a chance to get physical therapy for my shoulder
  56. perspective
  57. apples and challah dipped in honey
  58. an easy trip to a new-to-me neighborhood
  59. that many jealousies and envies are healing
  60. pluck
  61. graciousness
  62. overcoming shyness
  63. pearly white and deep cobalt
  64. the peace that comes from doing the right thing (repeat)
  65. happy anticipation of seeing a wonderful healer
  66. healthy organs
  67. amazing graffiti and ephemera
  68. taking new and once-intimidating actions
  69. realizing that it’s okay to be “late” (i.e. that there will be room for me)
  70. a song that I will forever associate with President Obama’s election
  71. beginning to grasp the less-is-more thing
  72. fitting in with the hipsters
  73. Rabbi Yaakov and Rebbetzin Yosefa
  74. free, delicious popcorn
  75. knowing that being imperfect is just fine
  76. endorphins and serotonin
  77. sixties-revival music
  78. feeling rich and lucky
  79. Something better beginning
  80. a rare (but refreshing) nap
  81. overcoming my terror-based upbringing
  82. a signed Ben Katchor print!
  83. my growing capacity to feel pleasure
  84. learning that past mistakes arose largely from settling for abuse
  85. models of happy, supportive partnerships
  86. inspiring photographs
  87. knowing my tribes
  88. practicing forgiveness, however imperfectly
  89. believing that I can get my act together
  90. industrial-strength laundry facilities
  91. Time
  92. increasing flexibility in all areas of my life
  93. a haughty black cat
  94. so many beautiful and deeply loved children
  95. indecency
  96. SHIFT FREEDOM
  97. steel, brick, and concrete (an urban poem)
  98. father Leonard
  99. contemplating country life
  100. waking up
  101. at least one sexy straight guy who is available
  102. a heart split open like a fig
  103. a completely safe and accepting place
  104. “So the woman went her way, and did eat, and her countenance was no more sad.
  105. my home in Greenwich Village
  106. opening this week!
  107. not taking on other people’s stuff
  108. the ease that comes with insisting on precisely what I want
  109. good dreams
  110. not giving in to fear and immobility
  111. Sancta Rufola
  112. standing my ground
  113. President Carter
  114. being taken for French, based on my looks!
  115. making connections
  116. very good Greek food at YVR
  117. a whirl of glitz and giddiness
  118. Calms Forté (thanks, RHH)
  119. amazing Canadian yoghurt
  120. keeping B, W, MM, and FT in my prayers
  121. so much gallantry!
  122. finding lost treasures
  123. aha!
  124. healthy hunger
  125. swanky new ME togs to trot out
  126. divine mercy (repeat)
  127. life (repeat)
» Il bacio sulla bocca

18 sept. 2009

L’shanah tovah tikatev v’taihatem

May you and I and all of humanity be inscribed and sealed for a good and sweet year—a year of health, love, abundance, success, and all that is blessèd and holy.

L’shanah tovah!

Felix et errabunda XXXVIIIc

  1. hugs
  2. still more pennies from heaven
  3. still more compliments on my shoes
  4. loving friends
  5. hope and optimism
  6. mercy, both human and divine
  7. sharing sweetness, and the happiness it generates
  8. opportunities to be creative and productive
  9. Thy will be done
  10. am Yisrael
  11. opening up to greater compassion and generosity
  12. Florence Scovel Shinn, Emmet Fox, and other great teachers
  13. time for reflection
  14. “you’re so good”
  15. healing
  16. good dreams
  17. a lovely young mom in fireball-orange pants and her three beautiful children, laughing and running down the street
  18. life

17 sept. 2009

Felix et errabunda XXXVIIIb

  1. kindness at every turn
  2. getting a flu shot
  3. speaking my mind and insisting on respectful treatment
  4. getting stuff done
  5. making a very handsome fellow smile
  6. expressing gratitude, and so many things that demand gratitude
  7. being busy
  8. excellent eggs and potatoes
  9. menschlich colleagues
  10. plans for the Chagim
  11. never-ending compliments on my shoes!
  12. that thinking about Turks & Caicos really works
  13. ice water
  14. happier updates from out of town
  15. spreading sweetness
  16. happy anticipation of seeing longtime allies
  17. divine mercy
  18. life

16 sept. 2009

Felix et errabunda XXXVIIIa

  1. a safe and easy trip home
  2. deep, restorative sleep
  3. excellent care
  4. loving friends
  5. options
  6. places where I am always welcome
  7. my home
  8. my wonderful neighborhood
  9. “problems” that vanish
  10. physical activity and the ability to do it
  11. strength
  12. knitting
  13. hanging in there and trusting that things will work out
  14. words of encouragement
  15. speaking my truth and being heard with love, understanding, and acceptance
  16. pennies (and quarters) from heaven
  17. divine mercy
  18. life

14 sept. 2009

Pensée du lundi 14 septembre

The art of life is to live in the present moment, and to make that moment as perfect as we can by the realization that we are the instruments and expression of G-d Himself [sic].
Emmet Fox

Felix et errabunda XXXVIII

  1. a safe and easy trip to YVR
  2. the opportunity and means to take a vacation
  3. systematic and calm packing, for a change
  4. spending time with S and L
  5. L’s triumphant premiere!
  6. our posh accommodations
  7. terrific coffee and free wifi
  8. even better coffee
  9. meeting so many inspiring women and artisans at the local knitting groups…
  10. …thanks to Ravelry
  11. super-kind receptions at all the local yarn shops I visited
  12. the Vermeer and Rembrandt show…
  13. …with Dutch licorice at the gift shop
  14. sleeping like a baby
  15. yummy, healthy food (here, for example)
  16. having more than enough food to eat, when so many do without
  17. the kind fellow with the iPhone
  18. scoring a ticket to the MM benefit show
  19. getting my bearings so easily
  20. Cathay Pacific’s excellent service
  21. simple and efficient transportation
  22. late-night swims in a saltwater pool
  23. gym facilities on the road
  24. reacquainting myself with my iPod
  25. the ready availability of ATMs, post offices, and letter boxes (in contrast to, say, Montréal)
  26. sending postcards to people who appreciate them
  27. that the presents pleased AKS and J
  28. many instances of serendipity
  29. the Aquabus
  30. the Public Market (pictures to follow)
  31. that the Jens shawl gives me major knitterly street cred
  32. friendly, helpful people at every turn
  33. learning to stay away from painful places
  34. kind and unpretentious buddies
  35. rediscovering classic songs
  36. confidence
  37. juiciness…
  38. …including the kind in BC produce
  39. feeling at peace
  40. asking for help…
  41. …and help offered spontaneously, including rides home and routes mapped out for me
  42. purchasing Photosynthesis
  43. …and meeting the swell gal who designed it!
  44. having options
  45. letting go
  46. embracing self-care
  47. healing
  48. efficiency
  49. trying new things
  50. order and space
  51. keeping it simple
  52. good habits picked up from AKS and others
  53. the opportunity to be there for friends
  54. temptations that no longer tempt
  55. an evening of lively conversation, good coffee, and the Beatles!
  56. easy cooperation
  57. no longer fearing giving things a whirl
  58. things once difficult that are now easy (repeat)
  59. no longer feeling the need to apologize for myself
  60. how photography calms and energizes me
  61. Tony
  62. Judy
  63. Gianmaria
  64. that my cheap swimming goggles turned out to be fantastic
  65. knowing that I owe no loyalty to crazy and neglectful people
  66. witnessing Derek Jeter’s magnificent career (repeat)
  67. a song for Derek
  68. hearing from a long-lost friend…
  69. …who had the happiest of news!
  70. hearing from another friend I had almost written off
  71. gleaming days without a cloud in the sky
  72. compliments on my shoes
  73. Indian food, by land and by air
  74. a frosty-cold drink when I was utterly parched
  75. generosity (repeat)
  76. faraway fans
  77. being able to write on my matte Moo cards
  78. compliments on said Moo cards (which show my photos)
  79. happy anticipation of seeing WB and GJ
  80. words of wisdom from WB (comme d’hab)
  81. trusting, and finding just what I need (repeat)
  82. the pleasure of keeping my word
  83. cooking a midnight dinner for friends
  84. fishnet stockings
  85. finding hometown favorites on the road
  86. physical activity and the ability to do it (repeat)
  87. inspiration when and where I least expect it
  88. that the world, right now, is safe and friendly, in contrast to what my family taught me
  89. that GF made a successful Los Angeles début
  90. a lovely message from Budapest
  91. lazy mornings
  92. watching dawn over Vancouver from my bed
  93. still more concrete evidence that being away from my job improves my well-being
  94. crisp green apples
  95. compliments from Doris Anderson!
  96. gorgeous new yarns
  97. the smell of the sea
  98. sharing good things with friends
  99. learning what it is to feel well
  100. my yellow (Tibetan?) scarf
  101. rejecting unhelpful words and ideas
  102. the first chill of autumn
  103. rocking the Gap “boyfriend” jeans
  104. knowing that movement and action always chase away the demons
  105. freedom
  106. light slithering and shimmying across the water
  107. sticktoitness (repeat)
  108. visiting a country with a sense of collective responsibility
  109. insisting on competent, dedicated, supportive team members
  110. feeling the burn
  111. friends who support me in my strengths and aspirations (repeat)
  112. feeling ripe for pleasure
  113. jasmine, in its many forms
  114. children and their unbridled, visceral joy
  115. fountains, sometimes when and where I least expect them (JFK, par exemple)
  116. sacred feminine energy (thank you, AKS)
  117. opportunities to live simply, joyously, and well
  118. pennies from heaven
  119. finding sweet presents for wonderful friends
  120. 11:11
  121. teal
  122. words of wisdom from AP and AP
  123. living outside of my comfort zone (repeat)
  124. who I am
  125. divine mercy (repeat)
  126. life (repeat)
» Il bacio sulla bocca

8 sept. 2009

Pensée du lundi 7 septembre



From Händel’s Semele, recorded in 2007: Cecilia Bartoli sings (in ravishing, crystalline English) “Oh sleep, why dost thou leave me?”

Bartoli’s new CD isn’t even out, and already the hating and ridicule have begun. Like Maria Callas, Bartoli is a woman whose power, smarts, and independence unnerve.

I have had the pleasure of interviewing her multiple times (latest interview here): She is by far the most intelligent and articulate artist I have encountered. We all are blessed to be her contemporaries.

7 sept. 2009

Felix et errabunda XXXVII

Nota bene: I tweaked the numbering because the blog template could not handle thousands, at least not in browsers that I use.

  1. very good news from three doctors (thank you, G-d)
  2. running a mile for the first time since I was in my twenties
  3. swanky new strength-training equipment at my gym
  4. happy anticipation of hanging with S and L in YVR
  5. finishing one lace project
  6. working my way through issues in another one
  7. just-what-I-needed bargains at Old Navy
  8. a miracle product
  9. renewed downward motion on the scale (thank you, G-d)
  10. AKS, MHS, S, GSI, and other friends who are there for me
  11. the picture at The Bean of President Obama that always makes me smile
  12. that my modest presents pleased U
  13. gorgeous days
  14. some peace of mind and a plan
  15. exceptionally kind and gentle professionals
  16. a surprise class with Padma!
  17. making something at the office in memory of 9/11
  18. looking up and seeing the towers of light embracing me
  19. a milestone in a big project at the office
  20. “it’s all good; no follow-up required”
  21. spending time with three exceptionally attractive men (even if they’re off limits, sigh)
  22. that my Pilates class was on despite the holiday
  23. my city, less crowded and more peaceful for a weekend
  24. getting my passport on time, as promised
  25. moving forward and not allowing myself to be consumed by fear
  26. a talk about False Expectations Appearing Real
  27. being told that I am strong and healthy
  28. a new Rufus CD!
  29. the chance to swim
  30. sirshana (repeat)
  31. Love Train!
  32. being able to send merit from my yoga practice to B and her sister, FT, and MM
  33. one excellent song amidst all the seventies swill at my café
  34. my amazing colorist
  35. hearing from EM
  36. dealing with things (repeat)
  37. Emmet Fox (a longstanding gift from AKS, thank you)
  38. a shiny-as-a-new-penny Sunday morning
  39. courage and grace
  40. sleeping like a baby
  41. happy anticipation of lunch with MHS and the girls
  42. cheaper-than-expected swim goggles
  43. that my middle-aged memory still works
  44. knitting with Sinatra
  45. passing along hand-me-downs to friends
  46. free coffee
  47. the chance to discover a fabulous new city
  48. that gratitude really is magic
  49. no knee pain (knock wood)
  50. saying no to unacceptable words
  51. my wonderful shoemaker
  52. Eli at Jeniette
  53. father Leonard
  54. that I am ready (listen up, G-d!) (repeat)
  55. balsam for the heart
  56. cool nights
  57. the healing power of generosity
  58. that good raspberries are still available
  59. how exercise keeps me sane and hopeful
  60. fabulous free knitting patterns
  61. divine mercy (repeat)
  62. life (repeat)
» Il bacio sulla bocca

31 août 2009

Felix et errabunda XXXVI

  1. another relaxing and wonderful weekend
  2. fitting into size 4 Gap jeans for the first time ever…
  3. …which makes a tiny bit more bearable the fact that “ma’am” is now a permanent fixture
  4. finishing a beautiful lace project
  5. Facebook friends who cheer me on
  6. cheap and good services in my ‘hood (repeat)
  7. hearing from ROL, and knowing that he is well
  8. getting ready for fabulous new experiences
  9. purchasing precisely what I want
  10. dinner with S at Dojo…
  11. …and knowing that she and L have had a safe and enjoyable trip
  12. the perfect song for Senator Kennedy Z”L…
  13. … and the perfect sendoff for him
  14. a few more cheap summer raspberries
  15. Chobani!
  16. finally getting something scary over with
  17. being told that I write good Facebook updates
  18. that certain types of junk food really do seem to be history
  19. things once hard that now are easy (repeat)
  20. being told, “Ask for forgiveness, not permission”
  21. prevailing in my running program
  22. once again hauling my arse to the gym instead of wallowing in self-pity
  23. Dr. Jill Biden and other inspiring women
  24. seeing that perseverance can bring results
  25. still more incremental progress at work
  26. the generous and amazing Ravelry community
  27. only a few more weeks until it opens!
  28. that AKS sounds happier and more relaxed
  29. that GSI remains one of the most beautiful women on earth
  30. leaving well enough alone
  31. things that work as advertised
  32. finding just what I need
  33. one thing off my plate at work
  34. photography
  35. kind and cheerful colleagues
  36. speaking up
  37. taking care of myself (repeat)
  38. learning that dealing with things brings peace and calm
  39. letting go and letting G-d
  40. surprising myself in yoga class
  41. “Yes, Marion, she’s the friendly one”
  42. knowing that there are always options
  43. saying f*ck you to fear and immobility
  44. creating something useful and worthwhile at the office
  45. good news from good people
  46. wisdom from them, too: Do not hurry. Do not rest.
  47. that my current place of employment, for all its limitations, is vastly better than the previous one
  48. a cool, good-for-sleeping night
  49. fitting into old clothes that were once too small
  50. not fitting into old clothes, because they’re now too big
  51. all the wonderful September birthday babies
  52. a perfect tote bag
  53. giving myself permission to like what I like
  54. feeling content and at peace (not always, but sometimes)
  55. so much beauty all around me
  56. doing something I resist right away
  57. learning about something important from P
  58. being taken seriously
  59. decompressing
  60. when a busy day stacks up just right
  61. one more for the late Senator
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